well im nt suppose to write anything since i dont no longer wanna express anything but this time is ... !! when i see this i get nervose ... the thing life can play u tricks nd these tricks are so funny when u remmeber the good bad past !! seeing that it have so many faces each one of us understand what he sees they way he wants it nt takin in consideration what other may feel or what is realy going on in that story !! nd destiny play tricks more nd more !! which make me learn more nd more that my intentions are not what they seems to others or the reflections or transmission is not that right !! its always missunderstood to some !! but who cares !! none will understand me !! none anyway !! so keep ure missunderstanding to ure selfs !! we should see the all facts of the stories going on !! nd open our selfs to see behind what it seems to be !! cause what we see its not all the time real !! sometimes its only tricks that our mind play !! if ure nt sober !! or if ure that stoneheaded !! or u wantin to accept evrything bad !! we hear or we see from the others !! nd nothin will change it !! cause it stuck in our mind !! we are nt guilty since there's no real proofs !! something seen in action !! nd doing it !! nd that what makes evryone innocent till they catch him on the action !! mean doing what he suppose nt to do !! life its nt one vision its more than one !! nd evryone sees they way he wants it !! but sometimes we blame others !! while we are the only cause for our own destruction !! cause other dont care about what is realy inside us none !! evryone thinks bout him self !! one shouldnt stick to his point of view he should see other version of stories !! need to learn to trust !! because people are nt always lying !! nd to say the truth if someone want to build something it should be with the truth !! but this truth once known its shouldnt be a tool used to remind a person of his past deeds whenever there's a missunderstanding !! so it won't work !! at all !! we are human !! nt angels !! just because im a girl !! i should be seen in bad way cause i did always what i wanted without caring bout others !! nd who are the others !! i dont know !! they talk bout me !! nd judge me !! while i only care bout my problems nd my life !! this one side of empty people who keep talkin bout what others do since they should care bout their problems !! well its an other subject !! but im no angel !! the only ones i care about are known !! nd these ones i never wanted to see anything bad from my past deed !! are of course my familly !! but i hate to play the role of innocent while im nt as so many girls do !! nd work doing it !! nd that's what i hate !! cause if did play that role !! i will be an other person by now i could get evrything i want !! just because im honest to myself i should pay the price !! to be me !! just me with my bad nd good !! nd i love the way im !! nd only ALLAH CAN JUDGE ME just because i did some past mistakes means that im a BAD PERSON !! but think what u wanna think !! nd do what u wanna do !! none oblige none to do something !! none oblige none to feel compassion about none !! but compassion have limits !! nd these limits shouldnt be over our selfs while ure nt satisfied with what we are doing !! nd i dont want none to feel compassin for me !! cause i m big girl i know how to take care bout my self !! i dont need none to take care of me or feel compassion for me !! all i need is someone who is able to understand !! to be open minded !! if he knows about my past he should be to be able to forgive nd forget while i will do the same also about his past mistakes !! its about sharing life !! building a peaceful home !! makin this harsh life easy as possible for both !! nd forget bout complications cause we dont need it to live a peaceful life !!! ********************************
